The Rancher Takes a Cowgirl by Misty M. Beller

Author:Misty M. Beller [Beller, Misty M.]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Misty M. Beller Books
Published: 2014-12-31T16:00:00+00:00

Chapter Eleven

MONTY’S BREATH CAME in deep lungfuls by the time his heartbeat finally settled to a tolerable speed. The row of barbed wire fence stood sentry not far ahead. He might really end up in Oklahoma at this point. But the fire was mostly gone from his veins now and had left behind a deep disturbance in his spirit.

He crouched down to sit on a log beside the trail, then pulled off his hat and tossed it to the ground. Bowing his head, he dragged in a deep inhale, stilling some of the turmoil in his mind.

After holding that posture for several moments, he tried to pray. “Lord.”

But no words came. God, I need help here. The cry came from deep within him, but it brought with it a measure of peace.

He stayed that way. Just…being. After a few moments, one of the verses from Psalms the pastor read that morning came back to him. Oh that men would praise the Lord for His goodness, and for His wonderful works to the children of men! For He satisfieth the longing soul, and filleth the hungry soul with goodness.

Longing soul. If that didn’t perfectly describe him, there weren’t any words that could. But what was it he craved so much? God setteth the solitary in families: he bringeth out those which are bound with chains. The verse flittered through his mind like a breeze.

Is that what had built up this powerful unrest? He scrubbed a hand through his hair. “God, I’ve been asking for a wife for years now. I just haven’t understood why You kept saying no.” To tell the truth, it’d been hard to forgive the Almighty each time he’d dangled a woman in front of Monty, then married her off to someone else. There were a few times it took a good long talk with the Lord to come to terms with whatever His master plan was.

“So what, God? What do you want from me now?” As much as he’d been trying to build a wall against her, Grace’s image took hold in his mind. Was this God’s special form of torture? Trying to teach him self-control?

“What do You want from me?” His words came louder this time, and he pressed fingers into his eye sockets to try to wipe away the images in his mind. “I know I can’t have her.”

Why not? The words were so real, he raised his head and looked around for the source.

Why not? Because she was his hired hand. Because he’d only known her a couple months. Because…

Because God had never said yes to a woman in his life before, how could he fathom Grace might be the answer this time?

Monty dropped his head and let it hang. Was that what this all boiled down to? God had been trying to hand him a blessing on a silver platter, but he’d been fighting it like a calf at branding? Surely he wasn’t that thickheaded.

“God, if you brought Grace for me, I’m gonna need You to give me a clear sign here.

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